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{Thankful Thursday: Clarity)

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I’ve been away, but I am back! These past two weeks, well three, have been quite the whirlwind. We sold our townhouse and signed it off to the newest owners on Monday, March 31. Unfortunately, our new house isn’t quite ready yet so that meant we had to find a place to store all of our belongings and live until we closed on April 14 {pray with me that we actually close on our new build on Monday}. So, we packed up our entire lives into two PODS, had them shipped away, and have moved into Andrew’s parent’s house until next Friday when we actually move in {yes, even the cats came with us}.

We are so so fortunate that Andrew’s parents have a) a house big enough to house all of us, and b) are gracious enough to let us bunk up with them for a few weeks. I have to say, I was worried it was going to be a nightmare {for them and us} but I’ve had the best time. I kind of love living with them. Wonder if they’d let us stay, hmmmm… Don’t worry Mom2/Dad2 we are leaving, I’m just kidding {maybe}!!!

Andrew has been traveling for work non-stop, Waverly had croup and an ear infection, I caught her cold, we moved in the snow/rain, and I’m currently living out of a suitcase. Life. Is. Messy. BUT, life is good. So good.

This morning {as many of my FB friends know} I woke up with more clarity than I have had in many many moons. I’ve been pushing myself at work recently…who am I kidding, I’ve been pushing for years. Pushing towards more money, a better title, more responsibility, more recognition, more, more more. For what? Why am I pushing myself so hard? What am I trying to prove?

I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve been promised “THE” promotion. The one that will put me on the map. The one that holds the title. The one that has such weight at the paycheck place that people actually say “oh that’s a ___” before they even say your name or what you do. The one that will be the difference between Andrew working and Andrew having the ability to quit his job without even thinking twice. But for what?

Am I striving for that because I love what I’m doing? No. Am I striving for that because it defines me? No. Am I striving for that because I won’t feel like I’ve made my mark without it? Maybe.

But, this morning I finally woke up okay with the fact that I’m not going to get “THE” promotion. I guess I felt like for a long time I was going to let Andrew down, or my daughter down, myself down. I put value on a title instead of the work that I was doing – work I don’t love, I just happen to be really good at.

For now, I don’t need to be a force to be reckoned with, I think my husband already thinks I am. I don’t need to show how powerful I am. I’m pretty powerful in my own right. I don’t need a title to validate my worth. I’m pretty awesome being the “CEO of Me” and TheMcBaileys {all three of us}. Instead, I need to focus on what’s important, what I want written on my epitaph. Because I’m pretty sure someone writing “She was a VP at The Paycheck Place” isn’t what I want displayed. I’d rather have “Loving, devoted, and selfless mother, wife, daughter, and friend.” And if I happen to get a VP title later on, maybe I’ll throw it as a post scrip at the bottom of that stone…maybe.

So, this Thankful Thursday I’m thankful for clarity. It can take a few signs from the big guy, a good night’s rest, and several breakdowns, but when it does appear, it is glorious.

What are you thankful for this Thursday?

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2 thoughts on “{Thankful Thursday: Clarity)”

  1. Such wonderful perspective, Megan! And such amazing things to be thankful for. You have many blessings to be thankful for indeed! 🙂

    AOT,
    Rachael

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