I’ve been MIA huh? Yep, this holiday season has just completely crept up on me and made my life a complete cluster! I’m sure all of you are feeling the crunch as well. I mean heck, I don’t even have to play Santa to any little ones, so I feel for you guys!
However, this will most likely be my last Thankful Thursday post of 2012 since I’ll be in Florida for the Christmas holiday visiting my family. I’m having such a hard time narrowing down to one item for which I’m thankful this week. I truly lead a very blessed life and there are days I have to pinch myself to even believe it’s real. Because of that, I’ve decided today I’m so thankful that God has blessed me with the life I lead.
I don’t know if it’s the holiday season, the fact that I wake up each day next to the man of my dreams, the passing of my grandmother a few short months ago, the devastation that Hurricane Sandy caused, or the awful events of this past Friday at Sandy Hook Elementary, but I’ve been doing a lot of praying recently. There was a time, not all that long ago, where I just had no interest in church or getting “one with God”, but I had a moment a month or so in the car where I realized I was being so ungrateful for the “things” I’ve been given. It was at that moment, while stuck in traffic on Clara Barton Parkway, that I prayed for forgiveness and thanked God for the awesome people in my life and the great opportunities he has provided me through the years.
Sitting in church this past Sunday (the first time I’ve been since Easter) I felt a sense of peace wash over me, a warmth I’d been seeking. I think I realized that I’ve been having the Sunday blues because my Sundays haven’t been complete. I’ve missed church. I missed feeling like I belonged, that I had someone to talk to, and someone who could understand my stresses and hurts no matter how small and trivial they may be. While we’ve only been to this church once, I think we may have finally found a place where we belong, where I belong. A place I can be myself and not worry about the people around me judging my actions, clothing, curiosity about evolution, and consistent need to question anything and everything. I’m honestly pretty excited about going back this Sunday, and I’m fairly certain there are more than a few people who are surprised to hear me say that out loud.
So my friends, today, December 20, 2012 I am thankful to God for providing me a blessed life. 2012 has been an awesome and humbling year. My first year married, the passing of my grandmother, a promotion at work, my aunt diagnosed with breast cancer, another successful beach family vacation, my mother’s continuous battle with c-diff, a new-found excitement to praise the Lord….I could go on and on. But for every bad there was good and more good than bad, so I really can’t complain.
I can’t wait to see what God puts on our plate in 2013!
So tell me, what you are thankful for today?